It has been a two weeks of revelations.. revelation #1 two-three acquaintances I met at the hospital think I swallowed some 10 cubes of ice at one go to reach this voiceless state. Revelation #2 A few other people thought I was on maun vrath when I showed them in sign language I did not have a voice. (that still remains a strange thought to me that people go on maun vrath on certain days of the month depending on the waxing and waning of the moon). As an extension, a few yoga enthusiasts thought I was doing an in house Vipasana course.. since I was not able to make to Igatpuri in a long time… revelation #3 the doctor asked me whether I shouted at the top of my voice! apparently that is also a way the vocal cords will be strained. Initially, I thought he was joking.. but seeing his no smile serious chubby face I understood he was expecting a monosyllabic answer.. I nodded a no.. he made me write down everything I did in the last 10 days with my voice… and most of the columns I wrote said I was talking.. to friends, at the mess, over the phone, on the road, .. and he looked up at me, and asked..”have you lost your voice before” I said, yes.. once before.. he replied shocked “just once, for the amount of talking you do..”he laughed out loud.. I laughed too, but no sound came out .. and still that remains the sad part, I can’t wholeheartedly laugh in these days past..! So I get by with the act of laughing, soundless.. open mouthed.. 😉 Well the reason I lost my voice is ironical to say the least.. the doc wants to meet me when I get to my voice back to hear me, sing.. because singing at the open bristo with the band on a cold Christmas night was the reason he says I lost my voice in the next few days.. !! (my present group of friends here came to know I sing, a piece of information my school mates and friends school and my family knew from school days). Imagine the irony, I sing and I lose my voice.. ! but I was singing after a very long time, that too live.. it was a great end to the year 2015.. singing to a live audience with a band.. not one, but many many songs.. I have loved singing all through ..
As you know, if you have read my new year post, my vocal cords have been strained.. and I have been advised to shut up and not speak at all if I want to be continuously audible for my presentation coming up in two weeks time. What do I do, I remain in my room the entire day. That way I don’t meet people, and if I don’t meet people I don’t have to open my mouth to talk. But I can’t just sit like that quiet for long, so when I go down for a cup of coffee and meet my friends, I do talk. Poor things, my friends, by the virtue of being my friends, they need to listen to whatever noise I make ..it is like I have suddenly found life.. say, after being submerged underwater and I have come up for air, and I’m trying to lap up as much oxygen as possible .. before I take the next long dip!