Yes, you heard right. I have none because I seem to live mostly in the present. Although the future is a minute, or a few hours or a week away, I still have no wishes piled up to fulfill. If I die today at this moment I will be happy and die without regrets looking forth to newer places, newer people, newer species, different realms.
It is a tad bit difficult to survive in this world when most of the rest of the world walks around with a to do list for the year, for five years…for a life time… there are lists put up on websites as to where else you can travel.. there is a wishlist tab on any site for a future turn around and look back, for the food to eat, or what books to read, there are lists by friends for 30 things before 30 or 25 or 40 or 50.. And while I encountered all these, I realized I’ve been walking around without a list for long…that I’ve been moving about life without actually thinking about milestones as well. I’ve crossed these milestones, celebrated then with zest without a list 🙂
Like last year, it was by sheer accident I realized my blog had also turned 9 years old when somebody else pointed out she had in a post… or that it the 700th post.. or 100th… When it is pointed out, I’m extremely thrilled. I make a big deal out of it, as you already know or shall know.. I love celebrations, but the point is I have never gone looking out for these. They come and I get to know one way or the other, as I will say later, I may be more of a review person..
Initially, I was not aware about the fact that I had neither a list or the need for a bucket large enough to fill it. I realized this when in a book group during last year over Christmas holidays.
We formed this group on FB because we were a group of friends who met online through blogs who gradually realized we also loved books and further realized that we loved each other so much that we loved to gift each other books periodically. The group is called Secret Santa after the Secret Santa game most of us are part of as part of the December holiday celebrations. At other times, we vote for a genre. The genre with the maximum number of vote wins. One of us go online to make/collect a list of books in that genre, the others add to it. Each of us then choose a set of three-four books from this main list so that our Secret Santa knows what to send to us. The secrecy of the santa figure is maintained until the book reaches each on of us. Sometimes the suspense kills, at other times we start to guess.. anyways with a set of friends who believe in the same kind of fun, it becomes a hit.
However, this time round over Christmas, we all decided to put up our bucket list of books. That, is the moment when I realized I do not have one which in turn made me ponder over how I choose books to read. I came to the following conclusions. Most often it is random selection, at other times it is a suggestion from friends or websites, at other times book sites, at other times I receive books as gifts :D, at other times I go on a book shopping binge….. there were so many sources from which I chose books. But this just made the problem of the bucket list more complicated. With so many sources of references, it meant that I had a lot of books in line to read or I wished for!!!! Then why did I not have a bucket list of books? Was I lazy to write to write it all down!!!!
I realized impulsive as I am, I used to find these books somewhere or the other, and some just were forgotten to be remembered later at some point. If I want a book I got it then and there if it was available, which erases the possibility of that book going into a list in the bucket, right 😛
But then I realized this is the pattern I generally follow as a life rule. I seem to live with the flow of today, what today is and I also seem to be least bothered about the future, although in my heart I know I will go places, read more books, meet more people and lead an interesting life just as I am at the moment.
Or that the definition of future for me may be just a day or a week or a year long and not the next 5 years or 10 or 20 or as long as I will. If that question about where do you see 5 or 10 years from now, earning what.. was put to me, I’d draw a blank there (which is like the oft asked and analysed question) but I know for sure, I’ll be living comfortably some place I love to be, doing what I want with the people I want to spend my time with.
Or it could be that I am more of a review kind of person, I can look back in hindsight and say, ahaa… I have run a marathon or bungee jumped from a certain height or spotted the parrot that tweeted all day long from the tree beside my room or shot a picture of a squirrel on the tree…as opposed to I am determined to spot that parrot that tweets from the tree and such, or shoot that squirrel today 😛
Or it could be that I have close associates who have one and I just hop on to their wish lists when they do… 🙂
And as is the case with me, some thing comes up, it is that confidence that has got me here so far… So bucket list to make one, the time hasn’t come yet.. I’ve been lucky to have and do whatever I wanted until this moment. I know life will go on like this as is.. 🙂 🙂 Knock wood, yes 🙂